MAN FREE LENT: 1 Week to go!

I've made it through lent so far with little hiccups. I'm actually pretty proud of myself that I haven't just given up completely and downloaded Tinder. It has definitely been a learning experience, and I think it really helped me focus on getting my life in order and my routine together since moving to a new place. Blogging has definitely helped and I think that continuing it will help me put myself first.


Truth me told though, I'm ready to get back in the ring. COMING IN HOT. This picture below can explain how I will be next Monday.

I wish I had some more insightful words to say in what I learned about this experience. I proved to myself that I could do it, which is very encouraging in itself. And although I do need men in my life to feel 100% whole, I can be happy and self-sufficient without them :)



MAN FREE LENT, halfway there (just about)

I'm starting to get restless. I moved into my new apartment this weekend, started my new job this week, and now I’m getting settled and looking around to say, what’s next? Given that my closest friend is 30 minutes away, I’m starting to feel a little lonely. But this is exactly why I did this challenge. I knew I was going to be in an unfamiliar place and feeling lonely, leading me to turn to men for company. It’s what I always do. This time, I am not. I am getting myself settled, building a life focused on me (and Lucy)!


I definitely lost some of my focus this week. With everything going on, I’ve been very tired and overwhelmed, which just makes me want to sit on the couch and catch up on my On Demand. I also have been putting too much time and attention to some of the men in my life. Nothing that I feel is breaking my Lenten promise, but definitely distracting me and taking some of the energy I should be putting into myself. I’m letting the thoughts of them get the best of me. This is the longest I’ve gone in quite awhile….


To help me get through the weekend and keep my priorities straight, I did what I do best, made a list. If I accomplish these 7 things it will truly make me feel like I had a productive weekend. They will help me get stuff done, but are also things that make me happy, and are things I try to do for myself.


1. Unpack -- but really, unpack!
2. Go to Ikea
3. Do work in a Coffee Shop
4. Have dinner at a bar by myself
5. Walk 10,000 steps, Friday, Saturday and Sunday
6. Cook a roast on Sunday
7. Watch one new movie

 

40 Days and 40 Nights MAN FREE

Usually I give up something for lent that will save me calories. Soda, chocolate, something that I always feel guilty about when I consume. What I decided to give up actually can make me feel even guiltier: MEN. It's been quite the year learning about the dating world. I had great dates, terrible dates, flings that went too far and some that didn't go far enough. It's mentally exhausting when I truly sit down to think about it. Then I have to add in the whole factor that I can be completely reliant on male attention to make me happy. If i'm not texting with someone or matching or snapping or getting likes from a male from the past, present or future, I completely let it get the best of me. It's something that I am 100% aware of about myself yet can't seem to shake it! It's how i've always been, and definitely a big motivator for me to focus on putting myself first.

I'm on Day 3 and I already feel free. It helps and hurts that i'm in another transitional period of my life. Helps, because i'm distracted with unpacking, organizing, job hunting and now blogging! But hurts because this is usually when I would feel so excited to wipe the slate clean, fire up tinder and see who is new in the area. Fighting my instinct to find a male to talk to in order to make my day feel complete, feels so shitty and makes me feel so happy at the same time. I think that spending these 40 days (really 46 because i'm not gonna take a break on Sundays ;) ), without searching for men, will make me feel so satisfied and fuel my fire on this #firstcomesme journey. Quite a while to go -- stay tuned.

In the meantime, here are some beautiful words from someone we all have a girl crush on: